My husband is out of town this week, and my dog is very very sick. I'm having the same problem now, re-experienced from my past. What causes this? Is it anxiety? Loneliness?
What do I think will happen if I just go to bed, alone? That I won't wake up? That I'm giving up on the day? That I have to face tomorrow?
Not getting enough sleep can really mess with my moods. I take an antihistamine with my nightly meds, and it helps make me tired and fall asleep quickly. But when I feel like this, this feeling of dread, they don't do anything. If I don't sleep, my mood usually starts to tilt one way or the other, off the balance I set it on with pills and therapy and support groups and self-reflection and and and.
My nightly regimen, +/- a few.
It tilts and then I have to ride it out, wait til it's leveled everything. I have to reconstruct myself. I have to spend so much time trying to get myself just at midline again. Not even good. I don't always strive for good. I aim for stable.
Sometimes stable's hard to come by.
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